Working Through Sleep Deprivation
Having an infant makes morning writing time hard.
I do not need to be convinced that morning is the most productive time of the day. I know this. Going all the way back to college, I have always been a “wake up early, go to bed early” person. I know I am most productive in the morning. As my older children evolved from needy toddlers into semi-self-sufficient grade schoolers, I could easily rise before the rest of the crowd and capture a few minutes alone.
This is when I did a lot of the hard writing about grief. I could reflect on a recent moment or collect my thoughts. Often I would cry, and thanked the universe for a quiet house where I could shed some weight in the form of tears. Sometimes I would edit, picking apart words and restructuring sentences — also grateful for the silence. And grateful for a cup of coffee with heavy cream.
Now I have a six-month-old baby. Waking early means losing precious sleep when I am already running ragged. That’s a pretty brutal choice. I love to write. And I love to sleep.
This morning, the baby woke at 5:30 a.m., which is an unusual time. Usually it is closer to 4:00 a.m., but she graced me with her presence at 2:00 a.m. and then again at 5:30. After a quick feeding I was awake. Nothing to be done about a clock that crept quickly toward…
