A Few Moments of Silence on a Saturday Morning

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My Saturday mornings have been a ritual for years. I wake up at the same time as a weekday. Feed my kids breakfast (waffles or pancakes, depending on the mood). Then leave and do errands, spending a few glorious hours on my own. Trader Joe’s and Target are my staples and I can wander the aisles unencumbered by requests for food items not on my list or a crying baby. I could likely complete my errands quickly, but I take my time, savoring the time to myself.

Not only do I have the time alone in the store, but also the drive in my minivan. Rather than listening to the current kid music obsession on repeat, I can make my own selections of either music or an audiobook. Yesterday, it was This is the Story of a Happy Marriage by Ann Patchett.

However, my iPhone was dangerously low on battery. Usually not a problem, but the USB charger in my van appeared to be on the fritz and was not actually charging. Since my shopping list is on my phone, I quickly decided to turn it off entirely, in an effort to conserve enough battery to use in the store. I haven’t listened to the radio in years and can’t stand commercials so my only other option was silence.

After acclimating myself for a few moments, I realized what the silence offered.

I turned over ideas in my head, sifting through some writing that I was doing. Ironically, I had just listened to the part in Happy Marriage where Ann Patchett talks about sitting for two hours, every day. She says:

My time in the car was not two hours (though driving around the suburbs of Chicago is not a “quick trip” either) but it was time to do nothing but think. In a busy life of a household with a husband and three kids, a full-time job, and countless other demands on my time, I have to search for ways to squeeze writing into my life.

I think I just found a way to dedicate a few more minutes per week. It’s not much, but it is something.

To read the writing that I do about pregnancy loss and grief, you can head over to my blog, Grieving Out Loud.

Image Credit: my own photo.

Mother • Spouse • Bereaved • Friend • Documentarian • Collector • Writer https://musingsoutloud.com/

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